So much time has passed since my first post. I think I've stayed away because uncertainty began filling my mind. I started to feel less brave about my decision. I don't regret it at all though because it's what I had to do.  I've also been away from here because I've been trying to enjoy the summer with my 5 year old side kick. I spend most days trying to fill them with fun for him and trying to ignore the question (that presents itself almost daily, lately)"holy crap, what am I going to do?". The beginning of the school year is quickly approaching and Luka will start Kindergarten. I'm trying to figure out what I can do for work to accommodate his half day schedule and be able to drop him off and pick him up by 3:30. After school daycare is not an option. I would also really like to be available for him. He's growing up so quickly and I just want to hold onto him a bit longer. Can we cut back so that I can be here for him? I really need a big chunk of uninterrupted time to figure things out. The hubs has taken Luka out for the day so I can have some much needed "me" time to replenish after a long week. Off I go to take myself out for a bit and try to remember...